Is it so much to ask to actually find someone beautiful with a personality? I mean you might be beautiful on the outside and blessed with great looks, but how is your inner self? Are you a total bitch cause of your good looks? Or has it not gone to your fucking head that looks are not everything and that the person inside of you matters also? I find that in California, where we are supposed to have the most beautiful women that almost NONE of them have a damn personality. A beautiful woman with a crap personality is just ugly to me... You could be the most beautiful woman on Earth, but if you suck inside you are someone I don't want to bother with.... A great body and face do not make you a Diva, Queen or god's gift to men.... although a ton of men would fuck your brains out just to say they did.. I woudn't... I might drool for a second or two, but once I talked to you for like 5 miuntes or less and you turn out to be self-absorbed... well you just turned ugly as fuck to me! I mean who needs all that drama and heartache cause you're a retard and can't seem to grow a personality and get over yourself? You can go find your hunky douchebag slef absorbed man, and live that fake ass life of how good you look together without actually loving each other!

Now mainly I find this to be true in California... a bunch of materialistic fucks that can't get over themselves... worried more about how someone looks than how they treat you or others...

I mean I need to be attracted to someone physically too, but they don't have to be super hot to be with me... I like someone with an attractive face... doesn't have to be a knockout, but not like a troll or bearded woman! LOL! Mostly I look at a woman's eyes.. if I like their eyes... and they have a personality... I could care less about the rest.... although being no more than pleasantly plump is also helpful.. you can be average, hot, gorgeous, or a plain Jane... just bring the personality.. and of course we have to get along! LOL! I am not into drama or head games... that's for the teens to do..

 My thing is that I was married for 22 years... and it really seems like a waste of my time when I think back on how incompatible she and I were... so this time around I am being picky... i want that connection that just seems like we have been friends for eons on the first day that we meet! For example, I have gone wine tasting and met people that I thought have known each other forever... and they had just met that day, but you could tell that they had a instant connection... not a love at first site, just instant friendship.. 

I require someone that is honest, smokefree, DRUG FREE!!, trustworthy, caring, helpful, don't have multiple current boyfriends, have a sense of humor and give good head... lol sorry it's one of those things that must be... I like giving it, they should too... 

Anyhow, my thoughts are stalled at the moment... I am gonna leave you with that... comments are welcome!