enjoying my day off and got a check from my insurance which will help out in paying the bills. received some books today and did not order them, kinda funny how a person checks their emails and says nothing about a book selection, if it counts twards a requirement then I guess I can take it. how have you been, hope all is well and I guess I will chat with you later.
didnt have to work today but was called in and didnt have to work to hard, 5 to 11. tomorrow they cant call me in, might workout and would of done it the other daays I had off but wasnt feeling right or something. hope everything is going well and hope to chat soon.
we going to have fun and nice to hear you want to see the different places there are. all sounds so wonderful and so excited, I hope every thing is good and chat when we can, take care
I think that they get so caught up with there troubles and bring it to me mostly and it a lot but looks like they dont know any better, kinda funny since they are the parents. gotta get better sometime, I hope and I guess we shall see.
something kinda funny may have happend today, I paid some bills today and may have paid them twice, dont know and hopping that if I did, the money will come back or count it twards next payment. My dad wanted to see a movie and we went and at the end was like what and sometime after the movie I checked my balance and wasent left with a lot, its like pay my bills and then to help him out, I have to pay some of his and give gas money to my mom or help her out with occasional groceries or something and then I have to keep my dad entertained by taking him to the movies. kinda leaving me in a shocked state and I tell my mom that I may have to take one of my cd accounts and my mom says, oh you dont have to do that and only says that because she doesent know how bad it is. its taking a toll on my now, more than usually and some things I wanted to help me health wise, I may have to wait even longer. wish u could hug me and be like it will be ok. keep on thinking or knowing how much joy you would bring me and wishing you would come, it be so cool.
feel like I am working to much and is not paying off. I am not a money hungry type of person but I like to have been a little further than I am because because I have been stuck here for way to long. dont exactly remember one of the messages you left but something about god testing me and how much I can take and its been going for to long, feel like ever since I was three or so. Feel like every time I start to Succeed something pulls me back to where I began like I am not ment to but only help this family I am with and if I am successful then I can be rewarded. song that keeps playing in my head from a band called 3 doors down and its called here with out you, I think. wish you were here, I would take you to some of my favorite restaurants but tell me how much you like fish. Red Lobster is one place and has different shrimp dinners and of course lobster and more. tell me something, you like nice walks and show u around. I guess I will leave you with this and see what u say.
just made a rather huge check, one that I dont usuallly make unless its for a bill to my credit card so I can pay it off faster. this was to the house, I guess if we can manage to pay all the payments to the house and pay it off, then I get to keep it. so I guess its kinda going to an infestment. really really wish you would come and if you came, would it be by yourself or would you come with someone, like family or something and where would you stay. if you came would like to introduce you as something that i have in mind but rather see what u said or want me to say, thought keep playing in my head of how it would be the greatest moment of my life to finally see you face to face. the thought plays in my head over and over so if its gets a little annoying, sorry. I just have strong feeling twards you and am a passionate person
called me in today and it was at 10am but called me by phone at 4 in the morning and didnt leave me much sleep. worked till 6pm and then they told me if I could stay and was like fine, ok and exhausted now. thought keeps coming in my head and its to meet you and the job thing, you wouldnt have to worry about paying for food or movies or you can mention things and I can tell you if I can pay for all of it but if you came and was that important to find a job right away, first chance I get I will help you get one. like george lopez says, I got this. when I am full of energy or just feeling really tired from work, your all I think about. ther are some songs from different artist and I guess I relate to it on how I feel about you and want to say more but dont want to scare you or anything might be to passionate
